Just Not The Perfect Day :( A few hours ago, I finally get a feel of how a person feels when he/she has tried their very best in accomplishing something, but failing to see the fruit of their hardwork. It feels bad & totally unpleasant.
It happened during piano lesson. I've been practising for 2 hours today. I forced myself to memorise all the scales & arpeggios. Later in the evening, it was lesson time. Pieces were good, commendable effort put in. Scales & arpeggios, however, were a huge disappointment. I've practiced so hard in the afternoon, and in return, I got scoldings. I must say, when I played it infront of him, I wasn't as good as when I practiced at home. Shaping was missing. Volume wasn't there. I felt super angry with myself at that point of time. I just felt extremely horrible. After lesson ended, Mr Lee said, "Actually, today you've played quite well. It's just that my expectations are high". At that point of time, I was on the verge of tears. I just couldn't take it, for I've practiced so hard today and this is what I get.
Well, after reflecting on what happened, I guess I just have to work ultra-hard. Maybe his expectations are high cos' exams are round the corner. (In 2 weeks time)
